husnuzon..

Salam..perut dah kenyang kn3??klu lapar ag,g mkn cepat..

Mknla pape pon..asalkan halal dan menyihatkan..bla3..

Okey..back!!hehehe

Bersangka baik..husnuzon..btol kn husnuzon is ‘bersangka baik’??ustaz2@ustazah2..sila jwb..=p

Sebenarnya nk post sal something else..

Tp tetiba dapat bnde lain td..mula2 tu hati xtenang sgt..

Sbb hati..dgn bantuan iblis2 menjadi seperti air yg m’gelegak..cm kecik besar kecik besar je der..=p

‘someone’ asks me..”nape x g kem nadwah”??

Hurm..for information..abg zakeer ade msj 5 hari lps..ckp yg sy telah ‘terpilih’ untuk jd faci kem kepimpinan BADAS..

Yet..i couldn’t make it since I have promised my lecturer to help her do things outside..

Thus, I have to reluctantly refuse to be ‘faci’ for the kem..=(

2 hri lps..terserempak dgn abg zakeer kt café..he asked again..

“btol ke xboleh jd faci nti?”..rasa cm susah n berat sgt hati untuk kata “a’ah..xlehla..maaf sgt2..”

Ayat tu mmg kuarla..dgn penuh rsa bersalah..muka abg zakeer pon nmpk cm hampa..:(

Maaf..sy nk ikot sgt2..tp disebabkan janji dgn org lain,terpaksa tolak ‘tawaran’ berharga tu..

Petang rabu:tup2..hal yg sy sepatotnya buat dgn lecturer pg jumaat ter’cancel’..ade sbb2 yg xdpt dielakkan..

Ting!!sy terus terfikir tentang kem tu..mybe program dgn lecturer cancel sbb Allah nk bg sy chance untuk bersama dgn muslims yg lain di Bendang Man *tempat kem tu dijalankan..

Tp..sy rasa x enak..npe??sbb dah 2x sy menyatakan bahawa sy xdpt join kem tu kt abg zakeer..

Sy rasa xsedap je *cm rfc je* untuk contact abg zakeer n tnye if any available place for me to join the camp..

Fikir..fikir..fikir..okay..mybe dah ade org lain gantikan sy..insyaAllah org tu jauh lebih layak untuk jd faci kem tu..kem kepimpinan kot..layakkah sy??errrr..layak tu layak..just..ada yg LEBIH layak..kot!!

Okay..back!!

Mungkin itu sume Cuma alasan sy untuk tak join kem tu..

Sorry..i have no good points to be provided here as an excuse why I didn’t insist to make myself joining the camp..

All I know is..i just feel guilty by asking abg zakeer about any empty place that I can take over..

Okay..okay..just end here..*tp ianya x semudah yg dijangka*

Saya harap akan ada lagi peluang bg sy untuk menyertai kem yg cmtu..

And for that ‘someone’ who asks me “npe x g kem nadwah??”..

I know she/he worries if I has turned myself away from dakwah..

No!!i’m not..yup!!i have to admit,willingly that I’m bad coz unable to insist on going there..

I shall improve on that..

Thanks to that ‘someone’ who has given me ‘wake up call’ about this thing..

I should consider things more effectively in future so that I wont overseeing things that come into my life..

Uhibbukifillah..<3